Wednesday, September 18, 2013

All we ever look for

I'm writing and update on this old blog, mainly because I need an outlet, and I don't have the drive to create an entirely new blog.
So I'm 25 years old currently and I've never felt more "slot less" in my entire life. You know, everyone has a "slot" they go into and that's not bad because it gives you ways to relate to people better.
I am not a wife. I am not a mother. I am not a girlfriend. I am not a teenager.
I am a writer that has learned to enjoy being alone because it's when I am the most productive with the things that are important to me. I do all my writing, practising of instruments, and a lot of my thinking when I'm alone. I don't want to be alone my entire life, but right now I feel kind of outside of most circles so it's the only way I know how to cope.
My taste in music I've found out is mostly shared with teenagers that are ten years younger than me, or 45-50 years over twice ny age. No one my age seems to like classic rock as much as I do or think it's that important. They may listen to it occasionally, but the only other "obsessives" like me are people that were there when it first came out, or teenagers still in high school. I try talking to these people just because I'm always desperate to find anyone who shares my favorite albums with me... but there's always a divide. I don't understand what it's like to be a teenager right now, and I also don't understand what it's like to be middle aged either. I'm thankful for all my friends young and old that don't make me feel weird for being "slot less". I have friends who are 16 and friends who are 50 and everywhere in between. They really help me a lot.
It will be nice one day thought to meet someone who is around my age, loves the things I love that not many other people seems to, and still allows me to go on lone walks and play my piano and sing by myself when I need to(because I know I still will).
This is been an interesting age for me to say the least.

Sorry for all the grammatical errors, but I don't feel like going and fixing them because this isn't a college essay.