Sound and Vision

Okay I'm taking a cue from one of the blogging girls I follow and doing a post (a month early hah) corresponding with my upcoming birthday. Since I will soon be 24, here are 24 things about me. If you get bored halfway through this... I will understand.

1.) I am obsessed with dying my hair. My signature color has been any form of red for the past 7 years. Currently I look like a flame head. I'm thinking about adding some dark pink soon though... I have always liked pink hair.

2.) I really don't watch TV. It's not for any moral reason or because I think I'm above it... I just hate almost everything on TV. All I will ever watch if I do watch it is Food Network, Vh1 Classic, Reruns of old shows, and recently I've been laughing at the new Beavis and Butthead (though I still think the old ones are better because they had good music videos. Also I wasn't allowed to watch those when they first aired and only saw them at other people's houses hah).

3.)I don't mind getting older at all. It's weird, but I actually feel younger now then I did when I was 20 or 21. I think as I get older I know better to avoid needless stress and drama queens.

4.) I hang out with my mom and brother a lot. I would probably hang out with my sister more if she lived in the same city as us.

5.) Sometimes (actually like everyday) I wake up and just pretend I'm somewhere else all day. I have a pretty active imagination. I pretend like I'm a town of foreigners and I don't speak the native language. I've been happier since I've started doing this.

6.) I didn't sign up for school this semester, the reason being that I want to travel after the beginning of the year. A missions trip perhaps or something. I really want to go to Russia or someplace Northern European.

7.) I have to admit... that sometimes I just want some McDonald's or Taco Bell. I am just not a picky eater (unless it has mayonnaise on it... I put my foot down for that).

8.) I don't enjoy boys who look like mannequins or Ken dolls. I also don't enjoy boys who blast southern rock music, wear skynyrd shirts, and cut their hair very short. I do enjoy boys who love church, have longish hair, want to talk about sonic youth, Seinfeld, or puppies, and are bad to the bone guitar players.

9.) I am obsessed with reading musician and band biographies. I don't know why, but I think it might be because if I love something or am a fan I just want to know every fact about it. I'm not really casual about things. I go big or go home hahahahaadahf

10.) All I ever want to listen to now is 80's synth jams that are cheesy, 90's alternative, girl music, punk, and David Bowie. It's the only stuff that won't depress me anymore.

11.) I do not buy expensive beauty products, but I wish I did. I'm simply to broke most of the time. One day maybe...

12.) My current favorite movies are The Labyrinth(hello Bowie and Muppets. That is a recipe for success), Pretty in Pink (80's, Molly Ringwald, Crazy record store friend, Ducky. All good things) and any Charlie Brown movies because they remind me of being little.

13.) I love Christmas scented candles. They just seem to make EVERYTHING better. Bath and Body work marshmallow peppermint and gumdrop scents are currently on my candle wish list.

14.) I love Iggy Pop lately. He is just so crazy and old I love him. I YouTube his interview and performance of "I'm Bored" from Australia's 'Countdown' anytime I need a spring in my step.

15.) I always have big hair. It isn't intentional it just happens, but I'm not complaining.

16.) I think any cake that doesn't have frosting is only half a cake in my opinion.

17.) I am loving coffemate's sugar cookie flavored creamer right now. I am so sad that it is a limited edition holiday thing.

18.) I love looking up songs on Songmeanings.com. I don't know why, but just reading all the different people's interpretations about the lyrics makes me laugh or think usually.

19.) Sometimes I want to go back in time and kick my 18 year old butt.

20.) My best friends are all girls and it's really a good thing to me anyways.

21.) I like to go out of my way to be nice to people who get made fun of. Even if it means I might get associated with them and get made fun of too. I always remember what being made fun of feels like and I have empathy.

22.) I really love kids lately. Especially the kids I get to teach music too, they always make me feel like I'm actually doing something.

23.) I love to make lists about all my plans for the next year. It keeps me looking ahead instead of backwards.

24.) Sometimes all I feel like I care about is over the hill musicians and not being fake. It gets tiring but what can you do?


This list feels haphazard to me, but I did my best:)

Random Style Post

A very young Kim Gordon



"Sapphire" from Almost Famous. I actually liked her outfits the most out of all the band aids.




Star print dress with red shoes

So this is Christmas

So most of my Christmas list this year is pretty boring. All I can think of are things I actually need so my list is mostly things like: Bass drum pedal, snare stand, new high-hat, socks....etc.

This is a list of things I don't actually need, but would still be pretty excited to find under the tree.









Fender Mustang Pawn Shop edition! The only way I could play electric guitar is if it were light enough for me and on the small side. That rules out most Gibsons I think, and plus I just love the look of this guitar.





I love Native American style clothing! I don't know where the Indian obsession began for me, but it's been around since I was a little kid. Maybe it was all those times we had to sing "Go my son, go and climb the ladder..." after the Pledge of Allegence in Melrose Park Elementary School.




I love these earrings too of course. They would go great with that dress I think and my minnetonka moccasin boots.






My David Bowie fangirl ways are pretty well known at this point, and I also have a coffee obsession. That makes this mug the best of both worlds I think.



What do YOU want for Christmas this year?

The two Davids

The two Davids from two different generations are my two favorite celebrity crushes right now.

For some reason the only celeb crushes I ever have are all on musicians. For the most part, I think the actors are just too normal and boring for my taste.








David Bowie! I LOVE his music. I appreciate that he has always marched to the beat of his own drum. I also think this is the only man that can pull off make-up and a bright red mullet.
I really hope he goes on tour again before he gets to old so us that were born in the 80's can see him.

Dave Grohl! Ahhhh I love Dave Grohl. I love Foo Fighters and Nirvana. I am definitely partial to his younger days when he had long hair and no facial hair, but even if I met him today I would probably scream like a little girl and pee in my pants. Not joking.

Pre Ziggy, you can still see that he's got star power in my opinion.

I always thought Dave Grohl was the best looking member of Nirvana. I like Kurt too, but as I get older I am more partial to men who are survivors and aren't incredibly depressed. Also Dave is my favorite drummer (next to Charlie Watts of course!).

My favorite Davids.

Who are your musician crushes? Is it weird that I have a Bowie crush? Or a Grohl crush for that matter?

Now I know that rose trees never grow in New York City

I'm starting to think I'm going to end up in a big city.
I've lived in a small town for the majority of my life, and I've never really felt like it suited me.
I like to always be able to leave my house and have something to do.
A wide variety of people, and a little something for everybody sounds so appealing.

The only really large cities I've been to are Los Angeles and London.
I pretty much loved both, and I think it's ashamed that I haven't seen New York yet because I feel like I would love it.

I would like to live in a really big place at least once in my life.
I feel like it would be years before I was bored again.

Clouds Up

One thing I'm figuring out more as I'm getting older, is that happiness is a choice.
I can't wait for my preferred circumstances.

I used to blame my unhappiness and years of depression on everything around me.
I was living under "the bell jar" for years. In case you haven't been under the bell jar before... I will just say it isn't easy to breathe under there.

It's up to me to break the glass and crawl out.
I don't go around looking for a boyfriend, and new dress, a piece of cake, or a bottle of pills to get me out of it.
None of those things work because I've tried them all.

I pull myself out of the bell jar with determination and the grace of God.

I choose to focus on things that make me happy and just BE happy.

Lipstick, coffee, singing, drumming, baking biscuits, coloring my hair red, Seinfeld re-runs, my dog Toby, wearing cowboy boots, talking to my chick friends, listening to the Beatles, watching Freaks and Geeks, reading a book, driving through the country.

These are the things I do now to make myself happy.

My grandmother lived to be in her 90's and I will always credit her longevity to her good attitude.
That's what I aspire towards.

(last photo from JaneAsherPhotoblog/blog title from "Clouds up"-Air)